And it seems

that my blog has attracted some unwanted readership. People who I totally don't want to open up to emotionally, for they will tear my paragraphs down like wrapping paper, trying to score some factlets on my life, then manipulate me using them.



Daily events, what I do, where I go to, who I meet, these are thorny issues too. Shall I say, I do get judged for all sorts of shit and I would be foolish to write about them, now that things have taken very complicated turns.



Ironically, I keep my thoughts away from the people I know best. I've got this policy: I don't give a damn what someone thinks of me, but I do care about what they DO to me because of what they think of me. And the people I know well, are the people most likely to hurt me that way.

And now, I'm sort of stuck with my blog not knowing what to do with it, only being able to safely write neutral stuff. Reviews. Music. Movies. Stuff like that. I don't have to talk about myself at all.



I dunno what direction this blog is taking. Yet. I'll figure it out along the way. But I sure do not want to lose my current audience, because it's the audience that keeps me writing.

It's sort of a writer's pride kinda thing, feeling good about the fact that people actually bother to read what I write, and that people do come back. Writing is communication, and what purpose does communication have if there's no one on the other end?



I'll be back. Naturally.