The Slippery Slope - how do bad days work?

I've been sorta half-expecting this to happen already. Been feeling progressively crappier as the week progressed. That feeling of numbness, that tiredness that prevents me from rushing to school on time.

The way every little thing irritates me.

So this morning I woke up feeling even crappier than ever, and for no real reason. That's especially creepy because if I don't know the reason, then how am I going to fix it? Felt totally useless, remembering the mess that is my life, and felt even worse.

Ate breakfast while feeling totally down, not making eye contact with the family at all. Went back to my room. Waves of self-destructive feelings. Couldn't ignore them totally. Couple of scratches but nothing major.

It's a bad bad day.

Bad days are like that. They start off bad. Then they get worse, simply because bad things get one down, and then when one's down, one simply doesn't have any more drive to make or keep things alright. Then it gets worse. The slippery slope. Start tumbling, and you're gonna go all the way down to the bottom.

Well at least there's school and friends to distract me from my mind for a big part of the day. So it ain't too bad.



But then, school's school so it isn't so great too. Lectures so boring one starts messaging on the phone, sharing websites with friends on where to download phone themes, musing on how the lighting in the room makes for good abstract photography.

The rest of the day's just trying to stay afloat, keeping oneself reasonably cheerful to keep the evil part of me out of my mind.

Oh well, there's this statistical phenomenon called 'regression to mean'. For random throws of dice, if you get a low number like 2, chances are that you'll get a higher number the next time round!

If today's such a bad day, tomorrow's probably better! Yay!